This is the love of my life - Mochi
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
The ex-boyfriend who's the kind of boyfriend
Situation 1 out of 2.
I guess I should be happy that someone who I love loves me.
Maybe I should stop thinking so much.
Friends say that it helps to write it down.
so here goes...
So his parents hates me.
reason 1: I have a birthmark.
reason 2: I'm too aggressive b/c im born in the year of the tiger.
his family background: restaurant buisness/lack of higher education/"christian".
I've never heard of true christians who believes in that nonsense.
excuse of immature statement: THAT IS SOO STUPIDDDD.
ok im done.
so he's been under 1.5 years of pressure.
pressure consists of: weekly parental nagginess about me (break up with her), brainwashing of ridiculous reasons, who knows what else his crazy parents are doing to him.
Finally, he broke the ice about this.
Said we can't be together b/c his parents dont want us to be together.
it's easier said than done.
everything he says is "we cant be together"
everything he does is "we are still together and i love you"
yeah, im pretty frustrated.
maybe one day, i'll be so frustrated that i'll get sick of it and just dissapear from him.
or..maybe..i dont know.
so lets make a list.
REASONS TO BE:
1. I love him
2. He loves me.
3. I'm attached.
4. I enjoy being with him.
REASONS NOT TO BE:
1. His parents "Duh"
2. His parent's superstitions
3. He lost faith in us/He already gave me up.
4. He's selfish to not letting me go but saying that I should leave.
5. He won't give me his facebook password anymore (you, shut up).
6. I'm not happy about where I stand.
7. The future is so uncertain.
Conclusion: NOT TO BE.
Lets do a spillage to get everything out and move on with our lives...
*shake it off shake it off*
here it comes...
I think you are a liar for telling me we were going to get through this together. Liars are assholes. Assholes are no good. So no matter how much you say you love me or how much you do love me, it doesnt matter anymore. This is because he gave me up so you could please your parents. your irrational parents with ridiculous reasons. If i was like a elementary school drop out who had no future, i'll accept that. but my birthmark and my astrology nonsense? OMG SHUT UP. Yeah i know you love me, but what good is that? I've already been through enough after agreeing that we will be together w/o your parents knowing. That's ALREADY a compromise. Now you are asking me to treat you as my boyfriend but even telling our FRIENDS that we are JUST friends?! i mean..what the hell is that?? okay, no i cant believe i've already agreed for 2 weeks. I just cant do it. It's not fair to me. I loved you so much that I was willing to change myself and be there for you like a girlfriend even after this. but now, I think about it..I am so much better than that! I dont need you and your sorry ass job-less self. YOU DONT DESERVE ME! I will find someone better. Someone who loves me MORE AND their family will love me too. Someone who wouldnt give me up because of stupid reasons. So love me all you want, because I am not gonna be here anymore. It's really really rEALLY REALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow. that was just about the most healthy thing I have done all month.
I deserve a pat on the back.
NEW BEGINNING.
starts NOW.
hip hip horray!
I guess I should be happy that someone who I love loves me.
Maybe I should stop thinking so much.
Friends say that it helps to write it down.
so here goes...
So his parents hates me.
reason 1: I have a birthmark.
reason 2: I'm too aggressive b/c im born in the year of the tiger.
his family background: restaurant buisness/lack of higher education/"christian".
I've never heard of true christians who believes in that nonsense.
excuse of immature statement: THAT IS SOO STUPIDDDD.
ok im done.
so he's been under 1.5 years of pressure.
pressure consists of: weekly parental nagginess about me (break up with her), brainwashing of ridiculous reasons, who knows what else his crazy parents are doing to him.
Finally, he broke the ice about this.
Said we can't be together b/c his parents dont want us to be together.
it's easier said than done.
everything he says is "we cant be together"
everything he does is "we are still together and i love you"
yeah, im pretty frustrated.
maybe one day, i'll be so frustrated that i'll get sick of it and just dissapear from him.
or..maybe..i dont know.
so lets make a list.
REASONS TO BE:
1. I love him
2. He loves me.
3. I'm attached.
4. I enjoy being with him.
REASONS NOT TO BE:
1. His parents "Duh"
2. His parent's superstitions
3. He lost faith in us/He already gave me up.
4. He's selfish to not letting me go but saying that I should leave.
5. He won't give me his facebook password anymore (you, shut up).
6. I'm not happy about where I stand.
7. The future is so uncertain.
Conclusion: NOT TO BE.
Lets do a spillage to get everything out and move on with our lives...
*shake it off shake it off*
here it comes...
I think you are a liar for telling me we were going to get through this together. Liars are assholes. Assholes are no good. So no matter how much you say you love me or how much you do love me, it doesnt matter anymore. This is because he gave me up so you could please your parents. your irrational parents with ridiculous reasons. If i was like a elementary school drop out who had no future, i'll accept that. but my birthmark and my astrology nonsense? OMG SHUT UP. Yeah i know you love me, but what good is that? I've already been through enough after agreeing that we will be together w/o your parents knowing. That's ALREADY a compromise. Now you are asking me to treat you as my boyfriend but even telling our FRIENDS that we are JUST friends?! i mean..what the hell is that?? okay, no i cant believe i've already agreed for 2 weeks. I just cant do it. It's not fair to me. I loved you so much that I was willing to change myself and be there for you like a girlfriend even after this. but now, I think about it..I am so much better than that! I dont need you and your sorry ass job-less self. YOU DONT DESERVE ME! I will find someone better. Someone who loves me MORE AND their family will love me too. Someone who wouldnt give me up because of stupid reasons. So love me all you want, because I am not gonna be here anymore. It's really really rEALLY REALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow. that was just about the most healthy thing I have done all month.
I deserve a pat on the back.
NEW BEGINNING.
starts NOW.
hip hip horray!
Introduction...kindof.
I can't believe I'm starting a new blog.
After my loyal 4 years with the most dramatic blogging community of Xanga...
and my 3 years of anti-blogging caused by the drama...
I am finally giving blogging another chance.
This time is different.
My identity will be hidden.
So I will not have to apologize for my true raw feelings after writing them and posting it up for millions to read.
heck, I'll deny it if they find out!
Let me introduce myself again to the internet world.
I am a general biology student.
I've been dreaming about going to pharmacy school since I was in 10th grade of High school.
I am 20.5 and am suffering from the "o.m.g i am so old" period of my life.
if it's not school work/PCAT studying, I am working.
If it's not neither, I am taking care of my dog(cutest dog in the world) and watching scrubs.
back to calling my dog the "cutest dog in the world", he reall is the cutest dog in the world.
No, he's not one of those dogs who I call cute just b/c he's my dog. blah blah blah. omg. im crazy.
okay whatever.
I'm done introducing.
TIME TO RANT.
MWAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.
After my loyal 4 years with the most dramatic blogging community of Xanga...
and my 3 years of anti-blogging caused by the drama...
I am finally giving blogging another chance.
This time is different.
My identity will be hidden.
So I will not have to apologize for my true raw feelings after writing them and posting it up for millions to read.
heck, I'll deny it if they find out!
Let me introduce myself again to the internet world.
I am a general biology student.
I've been dreaming about going to pharmacy school since I was in 10th grade of High school.
I am 20.5 and am suffering from the "o.m.g i am so old" period of my life.
if it's not school work/PCAT studying, I am working.
If it's not neither, I am taking care of my dog(cutest dog in the world) and watching scrubs.
back to calling my dog the "cutest dog in the world", he reall is the cutest dog in the world.
No, he's not one of those dogs who I call cute just b/c he's my dog. blah blah blah. omg. im crazy.
okay whatever.
I'm done introducing.
TIME TO RANT.
MWAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA.
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